A 40 Plus Woman Wants to Be Tupac

July 10th, 2012  |  Published in Uncategorized, Welcome  |  1 Comment


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I’m not saying I’m gonna change the world, but I guarantee that I will spark the brain that will change the world. Tupac Shakur

When I grow up, I want to be Tupac Shakur.

I know what you’re thinking.  What’s a white chick, in her 40s, living in suburbia have in common with the rapper, poet and actor, Tupac Shakur? My parents weren’t Black Panthers.  They weren’t even black.  I didn’t grow up in Harlem.  My sister was never sentenced to state penitentiary for killing a state trooper.  My stepfather (I didn’t have one of these either) never helped my sister escape from prison and ended up on the FBI’s Top Ten Fugitive List.

If I have nothing in common with Tupac, why do I want to be him?  Because he’s a poet.  Because he spoke for a generation of black boys and girls, of women and men.  Because he fought the fight, and ultimately he died for it.

A coward dies a thousand deaths… soldier dies but once. Tupac Shakur

I want to stand up against bullies, mean people, bad calls at sports events (like my indoor soccer games), for 40 plus woman who think they are invisible, for a society that makes anyone over the age of 25 feel like they’re old.  I want to fight for teachers whose pay is cut every year while the CEOs of oil companies make a bazillion dollars.  I want to come out swinging for equal pay for equal work, food justice and against plastic surgeons and the world we live in that bigger is better (boobs), smaller is lovelier (noses) and wrinkles should be erased.


Let me say for the record, I am not a gangster and never have been. I’m not the thief who grabs your purse. I’m not the guy who jacks your car. I’m not down with the people who steal and hurt others. I’m just a brother who fight back. Tupac Shakur

I want people, everyone, to know they are valued, their value.  I want us to stop hurting each other.  I imagine a world where when there’s a story on KPBS about Muslim women paying for a woman lifeguard after hours at a YWCA so they can swim, we let them swim.

since we all came from a women, got our name from a women, and our game from a women. I wonder why we take from women, why we rape our women, do we hate our women? I think its time we killed for our women, be real to our women, try to heal our women, cus if we dont we’ll have a race of babies that will hate the ladies, who make the babies. And since a man can’t make one he has no right to tell a women when and where to create one. Tupac Shakur

Yes, I’m just a middle-aged white woman living in the suburbs, working 9 to 5, loving my kids and my family, loving my friends and the world most of the time.  Sometimes I don’t like this world.  Like Tupac, I want to make things right.  I have the rage inside to do it, but not the time.  I’m not willing to sacrifice everything to change the world.  I’m doing what I can.  I’m writing editorials about leaving Muslim women alone and changing the local food system.  I’m raising chickens, using a clothesline to dry clothes, recycling and creating a better world the only way I know how, small steps, one change at a time. I’m lighting the fire, and hoping to spark the brains of the children and the next generation so they can change the world, too, anyway they can.

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  1. Phil says:

    July 10th, 2012at 7:17 pm(#)

    Good stuff Michelle! Tupac’s touching “Dear Momma” is on my all-time top ten list. He clearly was no saint but I think you hit the nail on the head with the “…I will spark the brain that will change the world” quote. A good goal for every parent. Keep it up!

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